I remember

wanting to be free.

I asked God.


But I am tethered to mental illness.

It runs in the  family.

It affects my family in how much they drink and issues like debt.


Two of my friends were suicides.  I can’t forget them and I promised that I would not.

But it means that I cannot break free from this illness, which led to their deaths.


There are so many strands holding me to mental illness.

I try to recover, I try to move forward, to achieve something.

But this illness follows me,  remains in my life.


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