(This is a post which mentions prayer and religion.)
I have prayed a lot over the years, and I wanted to be answered.
Sometimes, I was given an answer, but at other times there was no response.
I also have had prayers answered, but years after I made the first prayer.
I have often prayed with a sense of urgency, and I needed an answer. It was very difficult when I did not receive help.
I asked God to set me free from mental illness. He did, but not immediately. This took years, and even then, I discovered that mental illness still would play a part in my life.
This disappointed me, and I struggled to adjust to the new scenario.
I also prayed for a good Therapist, but God never sent anyone that I could rely on. Instead, I had series of disappointments.
I spend a lot of time wondering why some prayers are left unanswered. I want to believe that God loves us, but why would He allow such suffering in our lives?
I have been bewildered after prayer, and I have also resigned myself to the lack of response. I have spent a lot of time wondering why I have received no answer, or why God would allow certain things to happen in my life.
I do struggle with faith. I do want a better relationship with God.
When I feel this way, I read the Bible as I like the stories.
Or I read about the lives of the Saints.