I suffer from PTSD, which began when I recovered from Depression.
I feel that it was a poor trade, one for the other.
Initially, I tried to heal myself, but I now feel that some wounds are too deep.
At times, they rise to the surface of my mind, and I have to deal with them.
It has been that way since Christmas. I have relived certain instances from the past.
Flashbacks can occur, and then I relive the experience. I also blame myself for failing to protect myself.
I wonder why other people do this, how can they inflict this type of harm on another human being?
I wish I could find a way to heal these wounds. Sometimes, spending time with our cats can help. Also, sitting in the garden.
Certain books and films have helped.
I watch videos on You Tube about PTSD.
I like painting, and I use colours to combat the darkness.
I listen to ‘The Lord of the Rings.’
At the end, Frodo asks Gandalf if he will ever find peace.
Gandalf says that perhaps some wounds are too deep for healing.
I hope that is not the case. I hope one day that we will all find healing.