When I began my journey looking for healing, I hoped that some healing might come to me through other people. I might make friendships, or find a therapist.
I might even fall in love, and find healing through intimacy.
But the opposite happened. The more I sought healing, the more difficulties I had with people. They were distant, hostile, irritable.
I could not find a therapist, nor did I fall in love.
Now I find healing in flowers, Nature, but never people.
It is in the sound of rain falling, but not through friendship.